Not very good...

I must say... Now that I have found a bit more happiness to my life I have nothing to say to you all... Right now however I could complain about my head ache... and how I'm sure it's been brought on by yelling and screaming children... I started to get this head ache the minute I saw the kids today... Quite pathetic I know. Then as I rode the bike home in the strong wind... of course blowing on me... and the kids started to scream for no apparent reason... it began to get worse and worse... Then I got home started to make dinner and had the kids color at the table... Jet decided she needed to yell and scream about nothing every 2 minutes... And Thijs decided he actually did not want to color... He wanted to help me in the kitchen... I told him no... As I was just chopping up peppers and onions into small bits to make a salsa... But he was determined and began to climb up me and whine and pout until I was so annoyed i just gave in. Marine got home... Just as I was finishing up with Dinner... Jet started screaming, as she had been doing the last hour, about how she didn't want to eat... Most days she wont eat the food we make.. Unless it's something completely mashed up... Like mashed potatoes or her morning mush... But we've really been trying to get her to eat more whole foods... As she is 20 months now... And two months ago ate them just fine... Until she realised she didn't have to and she would still get her nightly dessert of yogurt. But Martine, with my full support, has decided that she will not get her "Toot" aka treat, unless he eats at least a bit of her food... Because she is just out right refusing to eat anything unless she wants to! Can we say terrible twos! Well we explained to her that she had to eat at least 3 bites and then she could have her toot! Well she ate one and decided she would not eat anything more... So for the next 20 mins as we all ate our toot... and tried to convince her to eat 2 more bites so she could have her toot, she screamed... And Cried! And scream a whole lot more!
Ayayayayayayaaya! Yes... I have a head ache tonight... and I think a well earned one too.

Update.

Well there really isn't too much to update on... Things are going same old same old here... But I'm enjoying it... This weekend I went to Alkmaar... Yes that's where I was previously living.... And I think it was weirder for Tess than me! Haha! She kept saying... Is this so weird for you... And I was like... no not really... Haha!!! But it did set my mind to thinking... How happy and content I am here with Martine and the kids. When I was in Alkmaar and I wasn't too happy with how things were going they told me I just had unrealistic expectations of how being and au pair should be.... But I'm here in Hoofddorp and things are just how I thought they would be... I mean aside from the few differences that are brought upon us by life... It's as I thought it would be... I'm here helping someone... Most days... and that's good to me.

With all that said. I'm feeling sooooo homesick... I know the reason why. It happens about once a month... ahhaha... But still it is there and it doesn't want to leave... I mean I know I would not want to leave... But some days I do with I could just go home for a couple of weeks... See Heather before she leaves... Be home for the birth of my first niece.... And just see everyone... I have now officially gone longer than i ever had before without seeing my family... Disney the longest there was 4 months... and even when I was there for 5 months my family came to visit... So now we're working on 6 months here pretty soon I think... Well January 9th to today, June 3rd... well whatever it is.. I have no surpassed all of my previous away from my family stint... And I'm homesick...

But I'll get over it... I always do... And the fact that everything else here is quite ideal will help me in that recovery... Well... Alright friends and family... I need to go... like really... Awe the sweet sad sounds of Death Cab for Cutie....